M.I.S.U.N.D.E.R.S.T.A.N.D.I.N.G

i was watching "playful kiss" when suddenly she came and told me the whole story,

well,,its not new for me,

i've been used to it already,

being dumped and isolated,

thats me,

i dont know whose fault it is,but then again it happen,

to me and to her,

i told her to get use to it,

it was only a misunderstanding,miscommunication,

u never knew it though,

who are u people to judge it so easily and talked secretly behind??

it was kinda of backstabbing,

i wasn't running away,

its u who left me behind,

and u always did so.

i'm tired of chasing u guys,

i will no more go after u,

then it happen to be u are telling that i kept avoiding u,

what the hell is this??

it really make me sick!

i have had it enough already

i'm tired!!

do whatever u wanted to

i have no gut to entertain u any longer

just do as u please

menghitung hari,,

menghitung hari untuk pulang ke rumah,,

akhirnya berakhir jgk statusku sbg freshie di ukm ni,,

next sem dah 2nd year:)

sepanjang dua sem di ukm kl ni,terlalu banyak yang telah dipelajari,

dari fizik,anatomi,fisiologi,biokimia,hubungan etnik,tamadun islam dan asia tenggara,pengurusan emosi,academic communication,psikologi,pengurusan masa,pengurusan emosi,,etc,,

tu semua subjek akademik,most of all,xlupa juga ape yang ak belajar tentang "kehidupan"

realiti kehidupan itu sendiri dimana ianya dapat dilihat dan dirasai di bumi ukm ni,,

pertama kali datang,bagaikan orang asing,,lambaian um seolah2 memanggil tetapi apakan daya diri sudah terikat dengan rantai besi di bumi ukm,,hidup diteruskan dengan realiti ukm dihadapan bersama dengan segala kenangan silam di um yang masih cukup segar di ingatan dan tidak pernah luput walau sekelumit jua.Itu la hakikat yang pertama.

Hakikat yang kedua,meneruskan hidup dengan keberadaan jasad di bumi ukm walau hati melayang-layang di um.Sukar sekali untuk menyesuaikan diri apabila jasa dan jiwa tidak seiring,apatah lg bila harapan yang menggunung terhadap ukm nyata hanya tinggal harapan,Indah khabar dari rupa.Tidak dinafikan,ada sesetengah part di mana ukm lebih baik namun itu semua tidak bermakna apabila dibandingkan dengan nilai seorang sahabat yang tidak dapat ku temui di sini,rasanya benar bila aku katakan di bumi ukm ini aku mulai melihat realiti kehidupan dari kaca mata yang sebenar,persepsi ku mulai berubah,ternyata hidup di dunia ini tidak seindah yang aku alami sebelum ini..ini lah hakikat sebenar dunia yang baru aku kenali dan rasai dan untuk pertama kalinya aku jatuh tersungkur berulang kali didalam dunia persahabatanku yang selama ini sangat aku agung-agungkan.

Aku jatuh Ya Allah,aku bangkit dan jatuh lagi,,

Namun aku tidak berputus asa,aku bangkit lg,,

Malangya aku jatuh lg,dan aku bangun lg untuk kesekian kalinya

bertemankan kudrat yang masih bersisa,

Jika aku jatuh lg selepas ini,apakah aku masih punya kekuatan untuk bangkit??

Aku tak ingin jatuh lg.jika aku jatuh sekalipun aku akan bangkit bertatih mahupun merangkak,

aku akan bangkit,kerana aku tidak mahu selamanya aku jatuh tersungkur,,

Namun di setiap kali kejatuhan itu,aku bangkit dengan semangat yang berbeza,

Ya,setiap kejatuhan itu telah membuat aku bertambah kuat,

Kekuatan yang hanya dirasai apabila aku jatuh dan cuba mengumpul kembali kudrat untuk aku bangkit,

Wahai HAti sabarlah dikau,

Sesungguhnya engkau telah bertambah kuat!!!

(to be continued......)

because i'm a fool~~

Because i'm a fool by Jung Yong Hwa,,poor Shin Woo for he has to give up on the person he loved the most,Go Mi Nye,,being dumped by her like a thousand of times,,yet he still give her his best when time in need,,he is indeed a gentleman in the story You're Beautiful,,i wish only if Go Mi Nye was together with shin Woo at the end~~it would be just nice if they were couple,,,but Tae Kyung was too great and it happen to be that he is with her,,never mind she can just pass Shin Woo to me :P

what a song by Shin Woo to Go Mi Nye!!

because i'm a fool......

I must be like this because I’m a fool
It seems alright even when I’m hurt
Even when I’m teased about my pitiful love
Because I’m a fool beyond help

I was good to her because I wanted to be
I was happy with just that
If she smiles just once
I’m happy with that smile

Thinking “This girl doesn’t have a person she likes”
I simply stay by her side like this
Because this is a love where I’m happy to be giving
I don’t expect anything in return

A place from where I can reach her any time she holds out her hand
A place from where I can visit her any time she calls for me
I’ll stay there without changing
Because I love her

Because she was the one I chose
Even the pain made me happy
If she looks back at me just once
I’m happy with that

Thinking “This girl doesn’t have a person she likes”
I simply stay by her side like this
Because this is a love where I’m happy to be giving
I don’t expect anything in return

A place from where I can reach her any time she holds out her hand
A place from where I can visit her any time she calls for me
I’ll stay there without changing
Because I love her

Until someone else to watch over her in my place arrives
I’ll stay by her side for the time being
Because this is a love where I’m just happy to gaze at her
I don’t need anything in return

So that she can lean on me and rest any time
I’ll always appear the same
Even if she leaves me without saying goodbye
I’ll let her go saying thanks

Because I’m a fool

English translation of lyrics by Soompi

Without a word-park sin hye

~~suddenly become addicted to this song:)~~~

Park Shin Hye - Without A Word
[You're Beautiful O.S.T]
CREDIT: sarangie<3@soompi forum [hangul] , EnVogue@soompi forum [romanization] , Agikasha@soompi forum [translation] , lanaGGG@youtube

HANGUL:

하지말걸 그랬어 모른척 해버릴걸
안보이는 것처럼 볼수없는 것처럼
널 아 예 보지말 걸 그랬나봐
도망칠 걸 그랬어 못들은척 그럴걸
듣지 도못하는 척들 을 수 없는 것처럼 아 예 네
사랑 듣지 않을 걸

말도없이 사랑을 알게 하고
말도없이 사랑을 내게주고
숨결하나조차 널 담게 해놓고 이렇게 도망가니까
말도없이 사랑이 나를떠나
말도없이 사랑이 나를 버려
무슨 말을 할지 다문 입이 혼자서 놀란것 같아
말도없이 와서

왜 이렇게 아픈지 왜 자꾸만 아픈지
널 볼수 없다는거
네가 없다는거 말고
모두 예전과 똑같은건데

말도없이 사랑을 알게 하고
말도없이 사랑을 내게주고
숨결 하나조차 널 담게 해놓고 이렇게 도망 가니까
말도없이 사랑이 나를떠나
말동벗이 사랑이 나를버려
무슨말을 할지 다문입이 혼자서 놀란것 같아
말도없이 눈물이 흘러내려 말도없이 가슴이 무너져가

말도 없는 사랑을 기다리고 말도 없는 사랑을 아파하고
넋이 나가버려 바보가 되버려 하늘만 보고우니까
말도없이 이별이 나를찾아 말도 없이 이별이 내게와서
준비도 못하고 너를 보내야하는 내맘이 놀란것 같아
말도 없이 와서

말도없이 왔다가
말도없이 떠나는
지나간 열병처럼
잠시 아프면 되나봐
자꾸 흉터만 남게되니까

ROMANIZATION:

hajimalgeol geuraesseo moreuncheok haebeorilgeol
anboineun geotcheoreom bolsueobneun geotcheoreom
neol a ye bojimal geol geuraetnabwa
domangchil geol geuraesseo moteureuncheok geureolgeol
deudji domotaneun cheokdeul eul su eobneun geotcheoreom a ye ne
sarang deudji anheul geol

maldoeobshi sarangeul alge hago
maldoeobshi sarangeul naegejugo
sumgeolhanajocha neol damge haenoko ireoke domanganikka
maldoeobshi sarangi nareulddeona
maldoeobshi sarangi nareul beoreo
museun mareul halji damun ibi honjaseo nollangeot gata
maldoeobshi waseo

wae ireoke apeunji wae jagguman apeunji
neol bolsu eobdaneungeo
nega eobdaneungeo malgo
modu yejingwa ddokateungeonde

maldoeobshi sarangeul alge hago
maldoeobshi sarangeul naegejugo
sumgyeol hanajocha neol damge haenuko ireoke domang anikka
maldoeobshi sarangi nareulddeona
maldongbeoshi sarangi nareulbeoryo
museunmareul halji damunibi honjaseo nolangeot gata
maldoeobshi nunmuri heulreonaeryeo maldoeobshi gaseumi muneojyeoga

maldo eobneun sarangeul gidarigo maldo eobneun sarangeul apahago
neokshi nagabeoryeo baboga dwibeoryeo haneulman bogo unigga
maldoeobshi ibyeori nareulchaja maldo eobshi ibyeori naegawaseo
junbido motago neoreul bunaeyahaneun naemami nullangeot gata
maldo eobshi waseo

maldoeobshi watdaga
maldoeobshi ddeonaneun
jinagan yeeolbyeongcheoreom
jamshi apeumyeon dwinabwa
jaggu hyungteoman namgedwaenikka

TRANSLATION:

I should have done that
I should have ignored it
like something i couldn't see
I shouldn't have looked at you at all
I should have run away
I hould have acted like i didn't hear it
like something I couldn't hear.
I shouldn't have listened to love at all

Without a word , you let me know love
Without a word, you give me love
You made me even hold your breath but you ran away like this
Without a word, love leaves me
Without a word, love tossed me away
what should I say next?
my lips were surprised
it came without a word

Why does it hurts so much?
Why does it hurts continuously ?
Except for the fact that i can't see you anymore
And that you are not here anymore
Otherwise, it's the same as before.

Without a word , you let me know love
Without a word, you give me love
You made me even hold of your breath but you ran away like this
Without a word, love leaves me
Without a word, love tossed me away
What should I say next?
my lips were surprised
Without a word, tears fall
Without a word, my heart breaks down.

Without a word, i waited for love
Without a word, love hurts me
I zoned out. I become a fool because I cry looking at the sky
Without a word, firewell finds me
Without a word, the end comes to me
I think my heart was surprised to send you away without any preperations
It came without a word.

Without a word, it comes and leaves
Like the fever before
Maybe all I need to do is endure the hurt for a while
Because in the end, only scars are left.

the forgotten

call me the girl that no one ever noticed

call me the girl that no one ever cared about

call me the girl that u can pass in the hall and not give a damn

call me THE FORGOTTEN

the pain of having a broken hurt is not so much as to kill u,

but not so little as to let u live

enough to kill me already

i always know that looking back on the tears would make me laugh

but i never knew looking back at the laugh would make me cry

u know what,

a friend is someone who knows the song of ur heart

and can sing it back to u when u have forgotten the words

please find one??

so this is my life

i'm not happy

and i'm still trying to figure out how could that be

I miss u!

i,ve just realised that my blog compose mainly of sad stories

well i guess i'm writing it when i was feeling blue thats why it is so after all~~

it happen to be that since i got here:UKM

i rarely feel at ease and overwhelmed by excitement and feel the happiness like i used to when i was at schools and UM

i dont know

well..

maybe i dont really hav a friend to laugh with me

i'm just a clueless and pathetic girl who desperately looking for a friend

i feel as if

i'm searching for something that is not even there!

i cant live

if living is without a "friend"

i really cant make a living in such a way

thats not me

i'm tired of being myself

can I?

i'm alone

something is missing in my life

and yet i dont know how to fix it

ahh..

there was time when i really laughed and enjoyed myself to the fullest

and as i looked back on those day

i realise how much i've been missing my old friends

i truly miss it

damn much!

“You can shed tears that she is gone,
or you can smile because she has lived.
You can close your eyes and pray that she'll come back,
or you can open your eyes and see all she's left.
Your heart can be empty because you can't see her,
or you can be full of the love you shared.
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday,
or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.
You can remember her only that she is gone,
or you can cherish her memory and let it live on.
You can cry and close your mind,
be empty and turn your back.
Or you can do what she'd want:
smile, open your eyes, love and go on.”

-david harkins-

Subhanallah~~

On the authority of Abu Dharr al-Ghifari (may Allah be pleased with him) from the Prophet (PBUH) is that among the sayings he relates from his Lord (may He be glorified) is that He said:
O My servants, I have forbidden oppression for Myself and have made it forbidden amongst you, so do not oppress one another. O My servants, all of you are astray except for those I have guided, so seek guidance of Me and I shall guide you, O My servants, all of you are hungry except for those I have fed, so seek food of Me and I shall feed you. O My servants, all of you are naked except for those I have clothed, so seek clothing of Me and I shall clothe you. O My servants, you sin by night and by day, and I forgive all sins, so seek forgiveness of Me and I shall forgive you. O My servants, you will not attain harming Me so as to harm Me, and will not attain benefitting Me so as to benefit Me. O My servants, were the first of you and the last of you, the human of you and the jinn of you to be as pious as the most pious heart of any one man of you, that would not increase My kingdom in anything. O My servants, were the first of you and the last of you, the human of you and the jinn of you to be as wicked as the most wicked heart of any one man of you, that would not decrease My kingdom in anything. O My servants, were the first of you and the last of you, the human of you and the jinn of you to rise up in one place and make a request of Me, and were I to give everyone what he requested, that would not decrease what I have, any more that a needle decreases the sea if put into it. O My servants, it is but your deeds that I reckon up for you and then recompense you for, so let him finds good praise Allah and let him who finds other that blame no one but himself.

It was related by Muslim (also by at-Tirmidhi and Ibn Majah).

Terima kasih wahai blog kerana saban hari menjadi tempat untuk aku mencurah rasa,,

i feel less tensed when i wrote,,with all the downpour in the heart,it went away as i write and write and write,,i guess i'm expressing it on u my blog!

sedih!!!:(

la tahzan!dont be sad!

kan Allah dah bgtau:

"Dan janganlah kamu merasa lemah,dan jangan pula bersedih hati,

sebab kamu paling tinggi darjatnya,

JIKA kamu orang yang beriman"

Kalau dulu hati ni sangat tekesan tatkala di'isolated'kan oleh sahabat seperjuangan for no solid reasons tetapi ntah kenapa sekarang xde sekelumit pn rasa tu bersarang di hati lg,,kenape ye??rasanya hati ni dah kalis diperlakukan sebegitu rupa,ya,,itu la hakikatnya!alhamdulillah tiada lg rasa yang membungkam dan menyesakkan jiwa raga sehingga meyebabkan ketegangan dalam diri,,lega sekali!a weight is lifted!in this evening,i give the final blow!

i'm trying to be positive!

aku belajar jd independent after all,,

i dont need people to accompany me to go to uo,chow kit,ts,pt widuri,smart copy,,

even if i wanted badly a person to accompany me i know there is none of it!sighT.T

and i dont expect they asking me to accompany them!

not at all!

the next thing i realise is that:

ak seorang hamba yang berTuhan,,

bila kita sedih,kita ingat Allah,,

bila kita gembira cpt pula kita lupakan DIA,,

betapa angkuhnya seorang hamba terhadap Tuannya,

seakan hidup tiada bertuhan,,

sedangkan Allah xpernah lupakan hambaNya,

kataNya Tuhan..

"Apabila hamba-hambaKu bertanya tentang Aku,

maka sesungguhnya Aku dekat.

Aku kabulkan permohonan orang yang berdoa apabila dia berdoa kepadaKu....."

Hari yang bakal dilalui adalah sebuah hari yang belum tentu manis atau pahitnya untuk kita lalui sebagai seorang hamba,

lalu kuncinya adalah:DOA

Doa memberikan kekuatan pada yang lemah,

Membuat orang yang tidak percaya percaya,

Memberikan keberanian pada yang ketakutan,,

DOA itu SENJATA ORANG MUKMIN,,

so,

Jangan sombong dengan Khaliq!

pesanan buat diri,

jgn pernah kau lupakan Tuhan,

baik ketika suka mahupun duka,

percayalah setiap suatu yang datang,

membawa jutaan hikmah,

diiringi ribuan hikmah,

tidak perlu kau persoalkan ketetapanNya,

You're never alone,just reach into your heart and Allah is always there,,

You're never alone!!

"...Apakah manusia itu mengira bahawa mereka dibiarkan saja mengatakan,"Kami telah beriman",sedangkan mereka tidak diuji lg? Dan sesungguhnya Kami telah

menguji orang-orang sebelum mereka,

maka sesungguhnya Allah mengetahui

orang-orang yang benar dan sesungguhnya

Dia mengetahui orang-orang yang dusta"

(Al-Ankabut:2-3)

Thanks to all pain and plain

Ain't a crime

because its u celebrate life

its still beautiful

no matter how much

it has made u

black and blue...

-Hlovate-

story of my life~~

Hi ,dear .I think I haven't had a real talk with anyone else during these days .In the cafe or after a sunshine noon ,chating idlely with friends is like sth luxurious . So ,as I'm free to open my mouth now ,I wanna talk over sth with you .Just imagine :D You cannot believe how warm and comfortable the weather is here ,between 10-20 C ,is exactly the coming of early spring.Every time I open the window ,gentle breeze goes into my whole room ,and touch my face .I love it ! And I guess it must have been very hot there ? :D Every day is regular ,even if my birthday ,no celebration ,no friends around ,as quiet as my character .:D Sorry to mislead you ,I'm the single child but I have no right to decide how many kids my relatives can own .And I'm the youngest of all .:D My new semester is also beginning on September.Half a year is not a short time if you wanna create sth . You know though i'm free as what i look like ,I know actually my parents still remain some unsatisfaction with my dropout ,I can sense that in their action and words ,which really hurts me now and then and lets me sink into guilt .I wanna travel ,wanna touch the outside world ,even if it's just a single trip ,by train or ...i don't care .While in the other hand ,I'm so afraid to make them labour under the delusion that my dropout is to play instead of further study .Find a part time job is good choice for me ,however ,distant trip is more beneficial to a teenage at the age of 19 .Youth is put into non-stop wearying work or get to know more about this world ? I believe the latter.We're already 19 ,and soon we'll stride into a new stage--20 .It's horrible to see our age accumulates with the passage of time. So far ,I've seldom done sth i wanna achieve ,the done is mostly what others expect me to .And it's one of the essential reason why i feel strained in the past.We need to be ourselves.Stress-out find no effective way to be cured totally ,at least there's some way to alleviate :follow your heart.:D I love writting to friends or simply go to bed when the stress is out of control .Do you have the habit to keep a dairy ? I tired before ,and you know what ,the next day when i looked back what i was pouring out ,tearing the paper into pieces is always the end ,so i never keep a dairy now .:D So turn to friends who really love you and I'm sure they'll be very happy to listen to you and try to share the stress with you together ,and never will they regard your visit as bother .Speak out your pressure will make us feel better than drowning it in your heart . Get it ? Just don't tire yourself so much ,dear ,be yourself :D Glad to know you'll be in long vacation too,so you'll go back to hometown hunting for a job or just stay in the university ? Any plan to make a trip ? Beside basic studying in daily life ,I take much pleasure in any kinds of American Tv series .I guess you must be very familiar with "FRIENDS" ,right ? I plan to watch it out :D and meantime ,improve my chess skill .Recently ,I find a new interesting game "Sudoku" to lighten up my life . Good talk for me .hehe ,sorry if my letter distracts you , just feel free to reply ,however short or long it is .:D Any words from friends will always make my day .I'm always here for you .:D Take care ,dear .-xiaomin

thats why i was so passionate of being a teacher

things was as usual except that it was raining outside,,

i was in the lecture,not really a lecture,english class,,

i was all alone,depressed,isolated in the crowd,but..

my english lecturer was a great one,i love to listen to her,

she was very dedicated,funny and love to tell us her story and life experiences,,

only then she started to talk,,

and again about her life,,

it was a wonderful one,,that i listen to every single word which come out from her mouth,,

and what i learned from her talk today:,,

please have justice on yourself,,

dont be too harsh on yourself,,

and find a friend to laugh and cry together,,

just like how she and Puan Azizah(her best friend) did,,

a friendship that bring two life together,,

they have become soooooooo close that they are being called the non-identical twin,,

just imagine this: they have been friends since she was in Form 4 until now(i dont know her age but i guess it is late 40's),,see how long they have been with each other,,

i guess their friendSHIP is even stronger than that of TITANIC,,

i was amazed seeing how their friendship was,,

do i have such friend?i asked myself,,

i dont know and i really dont know,,

i have so called my GM clique,,

i have so called my X3 clique,,

i do love my cliques,

but to consider it as strong as the friendSHIP of Puan Ruzmel(my lecturer) and Puan Azizah,,

i guess not,,

so,do i really have one?

u answer me~~

ever since that,

I PROMISED TO HAVE JUSTICE ON MYSELF..

I PROMISED NOT TO BE TOO HARSH ON MYSELF..

I WANT TO FIND A 'FRIEND'..

I WILL DEFINETILY CHANGE FOR THE BETTER,,

INSYAALLAH..

THANKS TO PUAN RUZMEL FOR YOUR INSPIRING WORDS,,:0

IT IS NEVER LATE TO CHANGE

as the saying goes

"to exist is to change,to change is to mature,to mature is to go on creating oneself endlessly"

Muhasabah diri kejap~~

"Apabila dirimu melihat hambaNya yg lain yang tidak diberi kekuatan untuk mematuhi PerintahNya, maka bersyukurlah kerana dirimu telah diberi kekuatan tersebut. Ingatlah tiada daya upaya melainkan daripada Allah.

Lantas bukan kritikan yang membuntukan yang diberi. Tetapi, seharusnya pandangan kasih sayang. bagaimana melakukan pandangan tersebut? dengan melihatnya sambil membisik kepada dirimu sendiri,
Ya Allah, Yang Maha Penyang. Sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Pengasih lagi belas kasihan kepada hamba-hambaMu. Sayangilah dia (bentuk kasih sayang seperti petunjuk dan hidayah yang tidak putus2) dan diriku seperti mana Engkau menyayangi KekasihMu. Peliharalah kami daripada menjadi golongan orang yang rugi..

Didiklah hati untuk mendoakan orang lain. Hatta orang itu tidak kita kenali."

kata-kata yang dipetik dari seorang sahabat..

sangat terkesan di hati..

lantas cuba menginsafi diri,,

moga aku tergolong dalam golongan yang diberi hidayah dan kekuatan

untuk terus mentaatiNya..

amin..

my dearest blog..

i write only when i feel like doing so,,

i'm pouring my feelings and words i've been keeping deep in my heart onto this speechless,nonresponsive page,,

my dearest blog,,

though u r so,

i'm glad to know that u would never get tired to listen to me,,

i do thank u for becoming something that i can turn to everytime i feel like doing so,,esp when i'm in pain..

i would be glad

to pour all my pain and all the blue onto u

for i know that u would always be there for me when i need u

rather than someone who can never stand me nor be there for me,,

(mode:sleepy)T.T

to be continued..

SAVE ME...........

Take a breath
I pull myself together
Just another step till I reach the door
You'll never know the way it tears me up inside to see you
I wish that I could tell you something
To take it all away

And there're so many things that I want you to know
I won't give up till it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know

That if you fall, stumble down
I'll pick you up off the ground
If you lose faith in you
I'll give you strength to pull through
Tell me you won't give up cause I'll be waiting if you fall
Oh you know I'll be there for you

BUT WILL U EVER BE THERE FOR ME??

SO THAT I HAVE SOMEONE TO HOLD ON TO?

FOREVER?

WILL U??

PLEASE BE THERE FOR ME..

SO THAT I WILL NO LONGER BEING ALONE...........

CAUSE

ITS PAINFUL WHEN U ARE IN CROWD YET U'RE ALONE~~

Yang dicari walau bukan putera raja, biarlah putera Agama.
Yang diimpi, biarlah tak punya rupa, asal sedap dipandang mata.
Yang dinilai, bukan sempurna sifat jasmani, asalkan sihat rohani dan hati.
Yang diharap, bukan jihad pada semangat, asal perjuangannya ada matlamat.
Yang datang, tak perlu rijal yang gemilang, kerana diri ini serikandi dengan silam yang kelam.
Yang dinanti, bukan lamaran dengan permata, cukuplah akad dan janji setia.
Dan yg akan terjadi, andai tak sama dgn kehendak hati, insyaAllah ku redha ketetapan Ilahi..

Pegajaran hari ini

buat sesuatu kebaikan terhadap orang lain hanya kerana Allah

semata-mata supaya kte xkecewa bila kebaikan kte tidak dibalas

oleh orang tersebut,,jangan harapkan ucapan TERIMA KASIH dari

orang sebaliknya kte yang kena berTERIMA KASIH kpd ALLAH

kerana bagi kte peluang buat kebaikan:)

Tiba2 teringat kat korang,,sedihnyer,,:(

it is is very true indeed when people say,a friend in need is a friend indeed,,ayat yg sgt common tp maksudnyer sgt mendalam n very meaningful,,

is it that hard to find such friend?its already my 2nd sem i being here but still i dont get even one of them i guess,,kawan mmg la rmi,tp kawan dalam erti kata sebenar??not even one,,

punya la bersemangat dgn azam baru sem 2 ni,nk buat baik dgn semua orang,nk tolong rakan yg dalam kesusahan,plg penting nk senyum sokmo:)dan yang paling penting skali,,(i guess i forgot the most important part),,ikhlaskan niat kerana Allah,,,but everything doesnt turn out very well,,

nampaknye benda2 cmni memerlukan kesabaran yg sgt tinggi smpi ak rasa betul2 teruji,,

baru tau betapa kerdilnye diri ni,,but the fact is that i cant live the life if i dont have a "friend"(bole ke cmtu?)..

berbalik cerita pd azam 2nd sem ni,knapa ak buat sume tu?xlain xbukan dgn harapan ak akan dapat menjadi kawan yg baik terhadap org lain dan pd masa yg sama ak berharap org tu pn akan treat ak mcm tu,tp ak silap,,ak silap bl aku mengharapkan perkara yg sama dri org lain,,

xsemestinya bl kte buat baik terhadap org, org akan buat baik terhadap kte,,dan itu la yg aku lupa,,shingga aku frust bl ape yg ak bg xsma dgn ape yg ak dpt,,,tp itu la realitinyer,,life is not a bed of roses,,masa tu baru ak sedar yg ak sekarang da keluar dri kepompong kpd dunia yg sememangnye kejam,,dimana mostly all people are being S.E.L.F.I.S.H and never bother about others feeling in every single things they do,,thats how the reality goes,,

by hook or by crook,nk xnk itu la kenyataan yg tpaksa ak terima,my life is no longer like how it used to be,i tried very hard living on my own,,only then i felt a great loss,khilangan yg amat,,

rindu kt korang sume,yati,yuni,mawar,elya,mc na,dayah,baya,leena,anna,syeba,,,,i miss u all damn much,if only u guys knew it,,u're the best of all!!!if only i can get back to the past,,

nevertheless,,life must go on,,so in the name of Allah,,,

yes,i tried very hard indeed,,but i promised myself not to stop doing what i've been doing,,

i will never stop trying until i find one,,all i need is STRENGTH~~~~~~~~~~~~~

A Lesson in Life

Everything happen for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by means of good or bad luck. Illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of your soul. Without these small tests, if they be events, illnesses or relationships, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowhere.

If someone hurts you, betrays you , or breaks you heart, forgive them. For they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious to who you open your heart to.

If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you, but because they are teaching you to love and opening your heart and eyes to things you would have never seen or felt without them.

Make every day count. Appreciate every moment and take from it everything that you possibly can, for you may never be able to experience it again.

Talk to people you have never talked to before, and actually listen. Hold your head up because you have every right to. Tell yourself you are a great individual and believe in yourself, for if you don't believe in yourself, no one else will believe in you either.

You can make of your life anything you wish. Create your own life and then go out and live it.

A Lesson in Life

Everything happen for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by means of good or bad luck. Illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of your soul. Without these small tests, if they be events, illnesses or relationships, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowhere.

If someone hurts you, betrays you , or breaks you heart, forgive them. For they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious to who you open your heart to.

If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you, but because they are teaching you to love and opening your heart and eyes to things you would have never seen or felt without them.

Make every day count. Appreciate every moment and take from it everything that you possibly can, for you may never be able to experience it again.

Talk to people you have never talked to before, and actually listen. Hold your head up because you have every right to. Tell yourself you are a great individual and believe in yourself, for if you don't believe in yourself, no one else will believe in you either.

You can make of your life anything you wish. Create your own life and then go out and live it.

Our failure is not our dumbness in our attempt to strive for the brightest stars,,

i love this quote very much indeed:)

our failure= it can be any aspect,need not to be the stdy aspect only,but also other related life aspect,,i'm nothing but a failure to myself and i'm tired of being myself!!

is not our dumbness=though it is so,i dont regret and i wont!!yes,my failure is not my dumbness!i'm not that fool to lose to myself!!its just the way u learned how to live the real life as the gift of life is life itself and people do make mistakes in order to correct themselves

in our attempt=i'm considering my failure as a result of the attempt i made,,it really is not an attempt but attempts,i'll just consider it as a success not yet a victory if i made it in only an attempt! we learned the best from our failure so dont ever give up when u had to do it again and again!!

to strive for=to strive for means to try very hard in order for u to get the things u wanted to,so

no pain no gain lol!try very hard,it must be hard but then u will get the very best of all:)

the word strive itself is very hard indeed,dont u think so?so,give ur outmost effort and STRIVE!!!

the brightest star=only when u reached the sky then u will get the star,i dont want that star,i want the brightest one!get it urself but its not that easy girl,,keep holding on what u r doing and u will eventually find ur brightest star!!grab it and dont u ever let it go once u got it!!keep it till the end!!!!!!!!!!!

THERE IT GOES THEN!!

NOBODY IS PERFECT UNTIL YOU FALL IN LOVE WITH THEM

When one is surrounded by love, the feeling of excitement fades away, and one tends to ignore the true love that lies in between the peace and dullness.

Love shows up in all forms, even very small and cheeky forms, it has never been a model, it could be the most dull and boring form......flowers, and romantic moments are only used and appear on the surface of the relationship.

Under all this, the pillar of true love stands......and that's our life. Love, not words win arguments...

Send this on to everyone special in your life, even the people who really make you mad sometimes.

Sometimes we expect far too much of the people around us, and because no one can ever live up to those expectations, we are almost always disappointed.

Wouldn't it be better if we just let go, and let people be who they are? Then we'd be able to see them as they are -- with all their beauty and goodness in which we take joy, and with all their faults which we can also see in ourselves.

When we have put someone up on a pedestal, sculpturing them to fit our needs and desires by smoothing out the rough edges and creating new curves here and there, we cannot see the real person underneath our work. All we see is the illusion we have created. That is denying the person's real identity and is disrespectful.

It's much better for our friends and for ourselves if we drop our expectations and illusions, and accept them all just the way they are.

Whether we realize it or not, everyone we know is very special to us.

The most important thing to remember is... Always appreciate the friends that you have.

A fight may come and go very easily, but a friendship could last forever.

The people who make a difference in your life are not the ones with the most credentials, the most money, or the most awards. They are the ones that care.

Don't walk in front of me, I may not follow.

Don't walk behind me, I may not lead.

Just walk beside me and be my friend.-- Albert Camus