Wednesday, August 1, 2012
27th July 2012
Perginya seorang insan yang ku kenali sebagai "Chik" buat selama-lamanya..
Insan itu sangat bermakna buat ibu.Insan itu adalah 'Chik',adik kesayangan ibu..
Dua orang meninggalkan ibu pada hari yang sama.
Chik meninggalkan ibu untuk pergi menghadap Sang Pencipta.
Aku meningalkan ibu di kampung untuk kesekian kalinya setelah cuti semester tamat.
Kedua-duanya pergi pada hari yang sama.
Di saat Chik meninggal ibu berpesan,dengan deraian air mata dan esak tangis yang dapat kudengar tika suara sedu sedan ibu bergema dihujung talian.Pesanan ibu itu cukup terkesan kali ini,sehingga ia terngiang-ngiang dibenak kepala tanpa henti,pesanan itu cukup sayu hingga menyebabkan air mata yang tertahan akhirnya tumpah jua.Saat Chik meninggal,ibu sedar,dengan sebenar-benar kesedaran,betapa dirinya tak betah lagi mengejar sang duniawi,dengan air mata penyesalan kerana merasakan seluruh hidupnya diabdikan kepada sang duniawi,sedang akhirat kerap dilupa.Ibu menyalahi dirinya.Katanya, dia gagal,gagal sebagai seorang pendidik,gagal sebagai seorang ibu,walhal ibu yang aku kenal itu sudah cukup solehah dimataku,tapi masih hatinya berkata ia gagal sebagai seorang pendidik.
Di saat Chik meninggal,ibu sedar dirinya hanya fakir yang tidak berharta apatah lagi bekalan untuk bertemu dengan Sang Pencipta kelak,walhal ibu yang aku kenal itulah saban hari tidak pernah putus beribadat,ibu mengaji,ibu solat sunat,ibu baca quran semerdu yang boleh,sehingga rumah kosong kami bergema dengan alunan bacaan Quran dari ibu,ibu itu jugalah yang sentiasa tidak putus mendoakan anak-anak dan suaminya,ibu itu juga lah yang begitu tegar untuk tidak menitiskan sebarang air mata tatkala rumah yang selama ini mejadi tempat berlindung hangus tanpa sisa meninggalkan keluarganya sehelai sepinggang,ibu itu bangun disepertiga malam untuk sujud menadah meminta kasih dan keampunan dari Yang Esa,dan ibu itu jualah yang merasakan dirinya gagal sebagai seorang ibu dan pendidik.
Tidak bagiku ibu.Kau insan terbaik dimata hatiku,selamanya dunia dan akhirat.InsyaAllah,akan ku pegang pesanan dan amanatmu hingga tiba saat dimana malaikat maut datang untuk menjemputku..
“Wahai tuhan kami, berilah keampunan kepadaku dan kepada kedua ibu bapaku dan kepada semua orang mukmin pada hari terjadinya hisab.” (Surah Ibrahim, ayat 41)
Firman Allah bermaksud: “Dan hendaklah engkau merendah diri kepada kedua-duanya kerana belas kasihan dan kasih sayangmu dan doakanlah (untuk mereka) – ” Wahai tuhanku, cucurilah rahmat kepada mereka berdua seperti mereka telah mencurahkan kasih sayangnya dengan memelihara dan mendidikku semasa kecil.” (Surah al-Isra’, ayat 24)
Sunday, February 26, 2012
For my beloved mom,,

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me
You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you
You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me
Saturday, February 25, 2012
2012,4th sem,,
Saturday, November 26, 2011
1 MUHARRAM 1433
YA ALLAH...KUATKAN SEMANGATKU INI....
In the name of Allah, the Beneficent, the Most Merciful.
All praise be to Allah, the Lord of all the worlds.
The Beneficent, The Most Merciful.
Master of the Day of Reward.
You (alone) we worship and You (alone) we ask for help.
Guide us on the Straight Path.
The path of those you have blessed, not of those with anger on them, nor of those
who are astray.
(Al-Fatihah;1-7)
Ya Tuhan kami, janganlah Engkau hukum kami jika kami lupa atau kami tersalah. Ya Tuhan kami, janganlah Engkau bebankan kepada kami beban yang berat sebagaimana Engkau bebankan kepada orang-orang yang sebelum kami. Ya Tuhan kami, janganlah Engkau pikulkan kepada kami apa yang tak sanggup kami memikulnya. Maafkanlah kami; ampunilah kami; dan rahmatilah kami. Engkaulah Penolong kami, maka tolonglah kami terhadap kaum yang kafir.
(Al Baqarah [2]:286)
khabarkan aku jika aku silap mengerti YA ALLAH..
bimbinglah aku pada jalanMU yg lurus,,
jalan yang Engkau redhai,dunia dan akhirat,,
Amin,,,
Saturday, April 23, 2011
M.I.S.U.N.D.E.R.S.T.A.N.D.I.N.G
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
menghitung hari,,
because i'm a fool~~
Because i'm a fool by Jung Yong Hwa,,poor Shin Woo for he has to give up on the person he loved the most,Go Mi Nye,,being dumped by her like a thousand of times,,yet he still give her his best when time in need,,he is indeed a gentleman in the story You're Beautiful,,i wish only if Go Mi Nye was together with shin Woo at the end~~it would be just nice if they were couple,,,but Tae Kyung was too great and it happen to be that he is with her,,never mind she can just pass Shin Woo to me :P
what a song by Shin Woo to Go Mi Nye!!
because i'm a fool......
I must be like this because I’m a fool
It seems alright even when I’m hurt
Even when I’m teased about my pitiful love
Because I’m a fool beyond help
I was good to her because I wanted to be
I was happy with just that
If she smiles just once
I’m happy with that smile
Thinking “This girl doesn’t have a person she likes”
I simply stay by her side like this
Because this is a love where I’m happy to be giving
I don’t expect anything in return
A place from where I can reach her any time she holds out her hand
A place from where I can visit her any time she calls for me
I’ll stay there without changing
Because I love her
Because she was the one I chose
Even the pain made me happy
If she looks back at me just once
I’m happy with that
Thinking “This girl doesn’t have a person she likes”
I simply stay by her side like this
Because this is a love where I’m happy to be giving
I don’t expect anything in return
A place from where I can reach her any time she holds out her hand
A place from where I can visit her any time she calls for me
I’ll stay there without changing
Because I love her
Until someone else to watch over her in my place arrives
I’ll stay by her side for the time being
Because this is a love where I’m just happy to gaze at her
I don’t need anything in return
So that she can lean on me and rest any time
I’ll always appear the same
Even if she leaves me without saying goodbye
I’ll let her go saying thanks
Because I’m a fool
English translation of lyrics by Soompi
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
Without a word-park sin hye
[You're Beautiful O.S.T]
CREDIT: sarangie<3@soompi forum [hangul] , EnVogue@soompi forum [romanization] , Agikasha@soompi forum [translation] , lanaGGG@youtube
HANGUL:
하지말걸 그랬어 모른척 해버릴걸
안보이는 것처럼 볼수없는 것처럼
널 아 예 보지말 걸 그랬나봐
도망칠 걸 그랬어 못들은척 그럴걸
듣지 도못하는 척들 을 수 없는 것처럼 아 예 네
사랑 듣지 않을 걸
말도없이 사랑을 알게 하고
말도없이 사랑을 내게주고
숨결하나조차 널 담게 해놓고 이렇게 도망가니까
말도없이 사랑이 나를떠나
말도없이 사랑이 나를 버려
무슨 말을 할지 다문 입이 혼자서 놀란것 같아
말도없이 와서
왜 이렇게 아픈지 왜 자꾸만 아픈지
널 볼수 없다는거
네가 없다는거 말고
모두 예전과 똑같은건데
말도없이 사랑을 알게 하고
말도없이 사랑을 내게주고
숨결 하나조차 널 담게 해놓고 이렇게 도망 가니까
말도없이 사랑이 나를떠나
말동벗이 사랑이 나를버려
무슨말을 할지 다문입이 혼자서 놀란것 같아
말도없이 눈물이 흘러내려 말도없이 가슴이 무너져가
말도 없는 사랑을 기다리고 말도 없는 사랑을 아파하고
넋이 나가버려 바보가 되버려 하늘만 보고우니까
말도없이 이별이 나를찾아 말도 없이 이별이 내게와서
준비도 못하고 너를 보내야하는 내맘이 놀란것 같아
말도 없이 와서
말도없이 왔다가
말도없이 떠나는
지나간 열병처럼
잠시 아프면 되나봐
자꾸 흉터만 남게되니까
ROMANIZATION:
hajimalgeol geuraesseo moreuncheok haebeorilgeol
anboineun geotcheoreom bolsueobneun geotcheoreom
neol a ye bojimal geol geuraetnabwa
domangchil geol geuraesseo moteureuncheok geureolgeol
deudji domotaneun cheokdeul eul su eobneun geotcheoreom a ye ne
sarang deudji anheul geol
maldoeobshi sarangeul alge hago
maldoeobshi sarangeul naegejugo
sumgeolhanajocha neol damge haenoko ireoke domanganikka
maldoeobshi sarangi nareulddeona
maldoeobshi sarangi nareul beoreo
museun mareul halji damun ibi honjaseo nollangeot gata
maldoeobshi waseo
wae ireoke apeunji wae jagguman apeunji
neol bolsu eobdaneungeo
nega eobdaneungeo malgo
modu yejingwa ddokateungeonde
maldoeobshi sarangeul alge hago
maldoeobshi sarangeul naegejugo
sumgyeol hanajocha neol damge haenuko ireoke domang anikka
maldoeobshi sarangi nareulddeona
maldongbeoshi sarangi nareulbeoryo
museunmareul halji damunibi honjaseo nolangeot gata
maldoeobshi nunmuri heulreonaeryeo maldoeobshi gaseumi muneojyeoga
maldo eobneun sarangeul gidarigo maldo eobneun sarangeul apahago
neokshi nagabeoryeo baboga dwibeoryeo haneulman bogo unigga
maldoeobshi ibyeori nareulchaja maldo eobshi ibyeori naegawaseo
junbido motago neoreul bunaeyahaneun naemami nullangeot gata
maldo eobshi waseo
maldoeobshi watdaga
maldoeobshi ddeonaneun
jinagan yeeolbyeongcheoreom
jamshi apeumyeon dwinabwa
jaggu hyungteoman namgedwaenikka
TRANSLATION:
I should have done that
I should have ignored it
like something i couldn't see
I shouldn't have looked at you at all
I should have run away
I hould have acted like i didn't hear it
like something I couldn't hear.
I shouldn't have listened to love at all
Without a word , you let me know love
Without a word, you give me love
You made me even hold your breath but you ran away like this
Without a word, love leaves me
Without a word, love tossed me away
what should I say next?
my lips were surprised
it came without a word
Why does it hurts so much?
Why does it hurts continuously ?
Except for the fact that i can't see you anymore
And that you are not here anymore
Otherwise, it's the same as before.
Without a word , you let me know love
Without a word, you give me love
You made me even hold of your breath but you ran away like this
Without a word, love leaves me
Without a word, love tossed me away
What should I say next?
my lips were surprised
Without a word, tears fall
Without a word, my heart breaks down.
Without a word, i waited for love
Without a word, love hurts me
I zoned out. I become a fool because I cry looking at the sky
Without a word, firewell finds me
Without a word, the end comes to me
I think my heart was surprised to send you away without any preperations
It came without a word.
Without a word, it comes and leaves
Like the fever before
Maybe all I need to do is endure the hurt for a while
Because in the end, only scars are left.
the forgotten
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
I miss u!
“You can shed tears that she is gone,
or you can smile because she has lived.
You can close your eyes and pray that she'll come back,
or you can open your eyes and see all she's left.
Your heart can be empty because you can't see her,
or you can be full of the love you shared.
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday,
or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.
You can remember her only that she is gone,
or you can cherish her memory and let it live on.
You can cry and close your mind,
be empty and turn your back.
Or you can do what she'd want:
smile, open your eyes, love and go on.”
Saturday, March 19, 2011
Subhanallah~~
O My servants, I have forbidden oppression for Myself and have made it forbidden amongst you, so do not oppress one another. O My servants, all of you are astray except for those I have guided, so seek guidance of Me and I shall guide you, O My servants, all of you are hungry except for those I have fed, so seek food of Me and I shall feed you. O My servants, all of you are naked except for those I have clothed, so seek clothing of Me and I shall clothe you. O My servants, you sin by night and by day, and I forgive all sins, so seek forgiveness of Me and I shall forgive you. O My servants, you will not attain harming Me so as to harm Me, and will not attain benefitting Me so as to benefit Me. O My servants, were the first of you and the last of you, the human of you and the jinn of you to be as pious as the most pious heart of any one man of you, that would not increase My kingdom in anything. O My servants, were the first of you and the last of you, the human of you and the jinn of you to be as wicked as the most wicked heart of any one man of you, that would not decrease My kingdom in anything. O My servants, were the first of you and the last of you, the human of you and the jinn of you to rise up in one place and make a request of Me, and were I to give everyone what he requested, that would not decrease what I have, any more that a needle decreases the sea if put into it. O My servants, it is but your deeds that I reckon up for you and then recompense you for, so let him finds good praise Allah and let him who finds other that blame no one but himself.
It was related by Muslim (also by at-Tirmidhi and Ibn Majah).
Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Terima kasih wahai blog kerana saban hari menjadi tempat untuk aku mencurah rasa,,
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
story of my life~~

Hi ,dear .I think I haven't had a real talk with anyone else during these days .In the cafe or after a sunshine noon ,chating idlely with friends is like sth luxurious . So ,as I'm free to open my mouth now ,I wanna talk over sth with you .Just imagine :D You cannot believe how warm and comfortable the weather is here ,between 10-20 C ,is exactly the coming of early spring.Every time I open the window ,gentle breeze goes into my whole room ,and touch my face .I love it ! And I guess it must have been very hot there ? :D Every day is regular ,even if my birthday ,no celebration ,no friends around ,as quiet as my character .:D Sorry to mislead you ,I'm the single child but I have no right to decide how many kids my relatives can own .And I'm the youngest of all .:D My new semester is also beginning on September.Half a year is not a short time if you wanna create sth . You know though i'm free as what i look like ,I know actually my parents still remain some unsatisfaction with my dropout ,I can sense that in their action and words ,which really hurts me now and then and lets me sink into guilt .I wanna travel ,wanna touch the outside world ,even if it's just a single trip ,by train or ...i don't care .While in the other hand ,I'm so afraid to make them labour under the delusion that my dropout is to play instead of further study .Find a part time job is good choice for me ,however ,distant trip is more beneficial to a teenage at the age of 19 .Youth is put into non-stop wearying work or get to know more about this world ? I believe the latter.We're already 19 ,and soon we'll stride into a new stage--20 .It's horrible to see our age accumulates with the passage of time. So far ,I've seldom done sth i wanna achieve ,the done is mostly what others expect me to .And it's one of the essential reason why i feel strained in the past.We need to be ourselves.Stress-out find no effective way to be cured totally ,at least there's some way to alleviate :follow your heart.:D I love writting to friends or simply go to bed when the stress is out of control .Do you have the habit to keep a dairy ? I tired before ,and you know what ,the next day when i looked back what i was pouring out ,tearing the paper into pieces is always the end ,so i never keep a dairy now .:D So turn to friends who really love you and I'm sure they'll be very happy to listen to you and try to share the stress with you together ,and never will they regard your visit as bother .Speak out your pressure will make us feel better than drowning it in your heart . Get it ? Just don't tire yourself so much ,dear ,be yourself :D Glad to know you'll be in long vacation too,so you'll go back to hometown hunting for a job or just stay in the university ? Any plan to make a trip ? Beside basic studying in daily life ,I take much pleasure in any kinds of American Tv series .I guess you must be very familiar with "FRIENDS" ,right ? I plan to watch it out :D and meantime ,improve my chess skill .Recently ,I find a new interesting game "Sudoku" to lighten up my life . Good talk for me .hehe ,sorry if my letter distracts you , just feel free to reply ,however short or long it is .:D Any words from friends will always make my day .I'm always here for you .:D Take care ,dear .-xiaomin
Thursday, March 10, 2011
thats why i was so passionate of being a teacher

things was as usual except that it was raining outside,,
Monday, March 7, 2011
Muhasabah diri kejap~~

"Apabila dirimu melihat hambaNya yg lain yang tidak diberi kekuatan untuk mematuhi PerintahNya, maka bersyukurlah kerana dirimu telah diberi kekuatan tersebut. Ingatlah tiada daya upaya melainkan daripada Allah.
Lantas bukan kritikan yang membuntukan yang diberi. Tetapi, seharusnya pandangan kasih sayang. bagaimana melakukan pandangan tersebut? dengan melihatnya sambil membisik kepada dirimu sendiri,
Ya Allah, Yang Maha Penyang. Sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Pengasih lagi belas kasihan kepada hamba-hambaMu. Sayangilah dia (bentuk kasih sayang seperti petunjuk dan hidayah yang tidak putus2) dan diriku seperti mana Engkau menyayangi KekasihMu. Peliharalah kami daripada menjadi golongan orang yang rugi..
Didiklah hati untuk mendoakan orang lain. Hatta orang itu tidak kita kenali."
Sunday, March 6, 2011
my dearest blog..
Friday, March 4, 2011
SAVE ME...........


Take a breath
I pull myself together
Just another step till I reach the door
You'll never know the way it tears me up inside to see you
I wish that I could tell you something
To take it all away
And there're so many things that I want you to know
I won't give up till it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know
That if you fall, stumble down
I'll pick you up off the ground
If you lose faith in you
I'll give you strength to pull through
Tell me you won't give up cause I'll be waiting if you fall
Oh you know I'll be there for you
Thursday, February 17, 2011
Yang dicari walau bukan putera raja, biarlah putera Agama.
Yang diimpi, biarlah tak punya rupa, asal sedap dipandang mata.
Yang dinilai, bukan sempurna sifat jasmani, asalkan sihat rohani dan hati.
Yang diharap, bukan jihad pada semangat, asal perjuangannya ada matlamat.
Yang datang, tak perlu rijal yang gemilang, kerana diri ini serikandi dengan silam yang kelam.
Yang dinanti, bukan lamaran dengan permata, cukuplah akad dan janji setia.
Dan yg akan terjadi, andai tak sama dgn kehendak hati, insyaAllah ku redha ketetapan Ilahi..

